best friend-less?

It's over, and I'm somewhat glad. I can finally move on and get a start on my life. I feel as if I have been living someone else's life, and now it's time to live for me. I can focus on bigger and better things that actually have potential to end up being the best things for me, which would be nice. This all made me realize that there is a time for everything to end, and that even if it's sad, it's for the best for everyone. I just hope he will figure his life out, and be happy. After everything, I'm glad I got to learn the things I did, and experience the things I have.

On a much similar note, but nonetheless sad, I am thinking Heath Ledger might be the love of my life, but he is dead.

Last night was a good time, we(Kara, Annabel, Sydney and I) went to Sunset fireworks, which were called off due to trees, blankets, and people catching on fire because of ashes blowing in the wind. After they were over, we had no idea what to do so we called up Skylar, who was partying with his BFF so couldn't hang out. Then I got a text from Colten, and we all ended up going to the rope swing in Kaysville.

Today after watching 4 hours of The OC, and part of Into The Wild, I'm ready to go back to sleep.

July 30, 2008!

So I haven't been on in a few days, not much has happened in that time. Just the regular stuff, going to sleep early, going to work, not having a life. I just wanna be free! I guess I might be after I find out for sure how much the fine$ are, dead babies!

Tonight was filled with adventures, 3 hours of Project Runway with Keith Bryce(I know him!), fajitas, and a half an hour of Buzzin'. After all that we decided to break out the fireworks, then it got good. I'm not going to let you in on the details because the people who were attacked might see this(highly doubtful but whatevs.) Annabel, I'm sorry for farting on your bed. Noelle, I'm sorry for farting on your face, but you shouldn't have smashed my head and shoulder into the wall. Syd, thanks for letting me terrorize people with your fireworks. Chloe, I enjoyed your song about that dinosaur that will "eat your guts, then he will poop them out!". Haha, I love love love my friends, but you already knew that!

I wore a dress today, how weird is that?! If you know me at all, you know I never ever wear a dress unless I'm at church or its a wedding I absolutely have to dress up for, but as weird as it was, I loved being in a dress. I'm probably going to wear them all the time now, plus i looked super good in it.

I love Cisco Adler, even though he gets with every babe in sight, and I'm pretty sure it'd be pretty hard not to. I need to make a 'Men in My Life' version dos, because I left some vital people out of it, including but not limited to Chris Brown.

I'm pretty sure that's it for now, because I don't know what else to say, Todd wants to go outside, and I smell like mosquito repellent, later babies.

july 20, 2008

Although outfitted with a river, hot(more like boiling) springs, and an Olympic sized pool, I was very disappointed in Lava Hot Springs. The tubes to go down the river for 2 hours were way too expensive, and the river was about a 4 out of 10, even though I don't believe in scales, until I decided to take it up to an 8 and go off a big drop off the wrong way, leading me to fall under the water and scrap my knee. There was also a 3 foot water snake that was likely the size of my right thigh found in the river, I decided to GTFO! The pool was alright, but it was a bit chilly, and me being afraid of heights was not able to enjoy the humongous drops to a watery death. The "hot" springs pretty much boiled my skin off, but it was OK to stay in for about 5 minutes. Otherwise I'm sure your heart would stop. Other than these problems, I had a blast.

Jan, Boofus, Aaron, and myself decided to take a mini road trip to Pocatello, ID, to see The Dark Knight, which absolutely blew my mind out of my ears! At first I was really sad that it was Heath's last movie, I still am, but Noelle made me realize, what a way to go out. (I dont even care if you think I'm stupid.) Tomorrow its going to be straight up TDK in IMAX for Noelle and myself, uh son.

After sleeping 3 nights on a hard mattress, 100 feet away from railroad tracks and the highway, I'm pretty much ready to take a shower then crash.

jane fonda

I'm just thinking about pictures of myself, its really weird to take them. Kinda awkward, and I almost feel super vain while taking millions of them just to get one good one. I just took a million where you can pretty much see my boobs in every single one of them(as you can see), but I uploaded one of them anyhow. I feel its very rare when I get ready, so when i do... I take pictures of myself just to prove to people(i think) that only see me when super bummy, that I do in fact get ready from time to time. Just don't think I'm a hoe.



Tonight was Anna's birthday party, and her cake was delicious. Happy Birthday Anna! I honestly haven't known her long, but she is a pretty cool cat, plus she is all into all the cool stuff I love, such as Weezy baby. What a cool gal.

As long as I'm on the subject of friends, I'd like to tell mine that I love them, thank you for sticking by my flaky, angry, bipolar, depressed and undepressed, happy, what have I, side. You guys are honestly the bomb, and I'm sorry I'm sometimes(ha) not the nicest person ever, but just know I'll never stop loving any of you. Old, new, present, best friends, aquaintances, whoever you may be, I probably love you.

I'm going to be camping this weekend with my family and Aaron, and I'm excited! We are venturing all the way up to Idaho, to visit Lava Hot Springs, and I'm damn stoked. Everyone keeps telling me how fun it is, how its "natural lava" as Jordan put it yesterday. I'm not so excited to drive for 3 hours straight, but I'll get the job done.

(I'd just like to let you all know that I have no respect for the boys around me lately, all they wanna do is get into mine, or someone else's pantalones. It gets old really, really fast.)

He only likes you because you buy him things, and like Annabel said earlier, "You may be loaded, but at least I don't have a fat ass."

I'm pretty sure thats all for tonight, I'll let you know how Idaho/Lava is, :)

PS: I love staying out late on nights I'd usually have to work.

men in my life

Alright, so I was on Sydney's myspace just now listening to The Darkness- I Believe in a Thing Called Love, and it got me to thinking, I love so many men... I should blog about it and tell everyone who and how much I love them. So here goes nothing.

Heath Ledger

Anyone who knows me that Heath Ledger(RIP) was, is, and will be forever my #1 main squeeze. I cant even begin to relay the feeling I have for this man, what a stud. He was my favorite actor, and it was also really nice to look at his fine Australian grade A meat on the screen. Haha, anyway... I'm positive you'll hear many more references about him in my blogs, so look forward to that! What a stud.

Cisco Adler

Alright, this is Cisco Adler, a newfound love of mine. I first saw him at Vans Warped Tour 08, but I immediately fell in love with the man. He may be notorious for hooking up with the hottest babes in Hollywood, but that doesn't phase me, it actually just makes me want to be one of the hottest babes in Hollywood. What a stud.

Edward Norton

Edward Norton, so much to say about this fly fella. He is in my favorite movie, Fight Club, and have you seen his bangin' bod in that film? My goodness! He is also a fantastic actor, as seen in American History X, another fantastic film. What a stud.

Lil Weezy

Alright, so now it's time for Weezy, straight genius when it comes to being the love of my life. He might be into drugs, and going away for 35 years, but it ain't no thaaang. He's ill, not sick! What a stud.

Jason Castro

So Jason Castro is up next, and WOW, just look at the guy. Dread locks are a favorite of mine, as well as the ukulele, and when you put those two with an amazingly chill and fantastic voice, you've got another love of my life. Like I told Skylar today, I'd give it up to him so fast. What a stud.

That might be it for now, and as you may know, there are plenty of other men on the list, these are the few that stick out to me right now.

I'd like to thank my little sister Boofus, and my neighbor Jordan for a good time tonight. Dollar scoop Tuesdays are always a blast though, thank the Lord for Love Potion #31. :)

bare lake

Bear lake is the ultimate tourist town, and my friends and i decided to join in on the fun. friday was the day we decided to leave, so the minute i got home from work, i started packing. we had everything we needed, so i was on my way to pick up sydney and annabel from sydney's house. sydney had a huge sleeping bag, and was not able to fold it up so we just shoved it into the van, and with no delay we were on our way to pick up noelle. while loading in her luggage for the trip, she spilled her jamba all over the back of the van, so she ran into get paper towels to clean up. finally we were on the road. we were all engaged in a long talk contemplating our beliefs, and talking about the weirdest things. after the two+ hour drive we arrived around 5, set up the tent, and went to get firewood, and try to find somewhere to blow up the air mattresses. we found firewood, and our camping neighbors let us use their battery powered motor to blow up our mattresses, friends! we made a really lame fire, but it cooked our hotdogs, which i had to resort to after dropping my boca burger in the dirt. we decided to go to bed early to get energy for the next day, which we planned on spending in the water. noelle and myself fell asleep just fine, but some of the people in our campsite stayed up all night, which kept annabel and sydney up. our neighbors' activities included four-wheeling at 1:30 am, blasting breaking benjamin(yuck!), and laughing at their dog barking all night long.

the next morning we found out annabel was very sick, and had something wrong with her kidney, so we met my mother, jan jan, and she took annabel home :(. after we got back we changed into our swim suits and made our way to the beach. while there, we met two drunk men, who had a bottle of alcohol, and a guitar. as drunk guy #1 walks by he informs us that he is drunk, and we laugh. after a day at the beach we return to our tent, and janie arrives! we talked, and decided to go get dinner, and check out the bear lake dance.

so we're eating dinner, and we see matthew frakes and his good friend the catman kyle. we went back to the tent to change our gear, and as we were changing in our tent, the drunk guy #1 from the beach ran by our tent, saw we were changing, and decided to stop and chat. he asked if we were changing, and when we replied "yes" he just said "sorry for intruding! do you have ice cream?!" after that we left. we stopped by the dance, which was "only 5$", it was so lame, so we bounced! when we got back to the tent, we were informed that drunk man #1 and #2 were eating soup, and they wanted more. we stopped and talked for a bit, and #1 built us a fire. they then invited us down to the beach to play with glow sticks, which we ended up doing. it was a very good time, and only janie, noelle, sydney, #1 and #3 know about the activities that went on down there on that fateful night. but i'll let you in on some of the quotes.


"i'm so not gay, we can even make out right now!
-uhhh, i just ate a hot dog.
whats your name?
-sarah, s a r a h, what's yours?
chase(#1), like the verb."


"you must know my dad then! he gets around.
-he gets around?
not like that! he is my dad!"

"we're in giggle city!"

"come on, i'll give you all the ones in my wallet. ooh, thats pretty sexy."

haha, needless to say we didnt get much sleep saturday night due to our tent party. but the next day was action packed. we cleaned up camp, said goodbye to chase, lief, tyler and friends. we met janies brother Dave(chops) to go get some food and get on the boat. we spent the majority of the day there, and we all got a little burned. i got miles's hat(which is bomb), janie seduced pete by scratching his head, and we sang total eclipse of the heart. on the way home we stopped for a little KFC and i sang the whole way home.

thats pretty much the end, and i'd just like to let you all know i just showered about an hour ago, making it 5 days in between showers. yeah, i know i'm gross.